shenanniegans [sic]

sang “The Greatness Of Our God” (Hillsong) at chapel today.

I, being me, am observant of what’s on powerpoints and noticed that a word from the lyrics got a little cut off on one of the lines; it read:

“Take what I have known and break it all apa [sic]”

When I read “apa”, it made me think of  ”appa” (dad in Korean, 아빠) because i read an old email another day asking a kccc mission team “appa” how his mission trip went.

“Take what I have known and break it all appa.” (Random cognate tangent: Appa sounds like Abba!) 2012, man, a year of growing pains. i wont get into detail about growing pains as i’m still processing still now. but i guess this “growing pains” theme kinda describes how young adult life is like. not in a bad way- but definitely growing, learning, improving - being broken.

at BEANO - arcadia small group, we did a new year’s reflection/ice breaker thing. i had things listed in my “Highlights from 2012” that i dont think would/could have ever happened to me like 2 years ago. The highlighted topics were: Greatest Lesson Learned, Hardest Thing of the Year, Favorite Memory and What I Loved Most about 2012. boy oh boy. wow, Father; who knew? actually, You knew. And You know — You know what will happen.

He took “what I have known and [broke] it all.” This Abba Father— He knows best; and I know that all things work together for my good (Romans 8:28).

I googled “apa” to see if it had some other meaning; (in case it was a really inappropriate word or something). and I discovered “apa” (아파)  means “he/you/she/it/etc…hurt(s).”*

Man, growing pains.

But God is good. God is sovereign. God is great. I want to see more of the greatness of our God. It comes from surrendering, from brokenness. Let’s see what 2013 brings.

*http://touchingkorea.blogspot.com/2011/09/vs-appa-vs-apa-dad-vs-it-hurts.html